Better things are coming.

So it has been three days since he was a dick to me. Honestly, I do not feel anything at the moment... Or maybe that is my problem? That I am not feeling anything. You know as a woman, when you put yourself out there and get that kind of treatment, you tend to close off or change... But that is the thing, I am still the same. I am happy and not bugged by the fact that he treated me that way during that moment.

It is as if I needed that and I am starting to think I did. It is helping me move on because now I am no longer holding on to broken promises or misconceptions of what it would have been like to have him in my life. I am grown now and I am free of one of my demons. The destruction of my happiness is no longer with me. I have the power to decide what I want to focus my happiness on and it is not broken promises or words, but it is actions.

I am a new woman without as much baggage as before. I am no longer held back by the past and what it gave me. It was nice while it lasted but good things have to end in order to get better things.

Relationships Or "Hooking up"

Hey guys. So I am back and this time I have decided to write about relationships or the misconception of them and how today's generation has become accustomed to calling it "hooking up". 

First off, I'd like to share with you guys my opinion regarding relationships. I feel like relationships should not just be a thing people get into if they are not planning on being with that particular partner for the long run. I personally feel like people should be in relationships to get married to their partners and it shouldn't be about passing time. I get that there are people out there that get into relationships because they cannot stand to be alone or they are "bored" (as some might say), or whatever illogical reason they might have, but that is just how I see it.  

Being in a relationship, is a very serious thing, mainly because not only are you investing all your time in knowing the person you are with, but you also start to become like them. You start doing things the way they do, because it is what you see all the time. You start chewing your food like them, you start getting the same attitude towards certain things etc. You basically become ONE. 

I also want to share with you guys how my relationships have gone. Okay before that I must say I am single and proud (I have pizza beside me, so I am good). I have been in a few relationships but they have not worked out because it is either the fact that I cannot entirely open myself up for them to "really know me and understand where I am coming from" or it is them and not being "ready to fully commit". You guys may wonder why I did not entirely open myself up for them, well it's because I could never fully trust people and this has been something that affected me, my whole life. Reason why I had trust issues is, because my dad walked out of my life when I was still young and ever since then I thought maybe I was not good enough for him because he left my mom and I for another family where he could get a lot of sons. 

Lol enough about my sad past. Anyway, I am working on my trust issues (Yay me!), but that is besides the point. 

I would like to be in a relationship but obviously not now because I am working on myself and trying to figure things out as an adult now. 

Now to talk about hooking up. Honestly, I have hooked up before and it is such a waste of time and it is tiring (whew!). I am saying this because you have to control your feelings and you just have to think "No I cannot be like this, they will catch feelings" (yawn). Stuff like that make it so tiring and not worth your while. I have stopped though! So no more hook-ups, unless you are Zac Efron...

Anyway, relationships are cool but if you are really serious about that person and you see a future with them! Hook-ups are a NO NO! Do not play with people's feelings like that, it is sad and tiring and definitely not worth your while! 

Thank you for reading guys! 
Do not be afraid to comment, even if it's anonymous... Even if you are just here to talk about how you burped, that is cool. It is a comment after all. 

Cheerio!!! :) 

This should be interesting...

So... Hello everyone. 

As you all can see, I am quite new to this blogging stuff and I hope you all understand... Anyway, hi. My name is Namhla, but you can all call me Nana. Calling me Namhla just sounds weird... Coz I am so used to hearing Nana... and now I am blabbering. Well, as I said, I am new here and I wanna share with you guys why I started this blog about random things on my mind...

I started this blog because I was bored... Kidding, I started this blog because I wanted to improve my writing skills and what better way to do that than with people giving me feedback on how I make a lot of mistakes and my sentence structures are a bit jumbled up etc etc. 

Okay... So I might have said a lot of things as to why I started this blog... I really just started it to express myself(which may be what every one of you guys do here... lol). I have no idea what to say...

I think I should tell you guys a little bit about myself... Well, I am random and weird... kidding. I am very serious and I have ten cats... (Double kidding, if that is even a thing). I am a 20 year old lady that has no idea why this age is the most awkward stage of my life... I live in Port Elizabeth which is in South Africa. S/O to my people all over the world reading this weird stuff... 

I believe that I am a very opinionated lady that LOVES telling it how it is... AND I LOVE PIZZA! (I mean who wouldn't?). I can be a very deep person... this is weird because you should find this out by yourselves, instead of me telling you. I want to be a writer some day... Just to boost my ego. LOL. No, I want to be a writer because I just love reading and I just want people to know what I am thinking without having to say anything.... (Did that make sense?) 

Anyway, I seem loud, don't I? 

That is only because I am. :) 

*Can you put smiley faces here or is there a rule??* 

This is still awkward... So I am just going to stop now because I feel like that is enough for the day... (whew!)

This one is for my weird people out there. 

Thank you 

P.S. 

Please do not judge me...